Diary of 11 September 2009~ Future, English, Revolution~!

Today is a last day of this study week. After recess we gained four periods free because there were no teacher or she want to do her own work in class. SWT~ I felt bored because nothing to do except chatting or actually is "arguing" with loon wern. I don't like revise study at school although the exam is around the corner...

That time guan yee showed us our co-cu reports and discussing about meeting of science society. well, I get high marks at club/society column but I started to upset because of other part. I totally desperated when loon wern counted out it (forget about it)... Now I'm worrying about future to study further. without grade A in cocu I definetely won't get scholarship which I want in future since subjects to be taken in SPM is limited and sure there will be a lots of 10 A's achievers. loon wern didn't soothe me but just irritating me. Ok fine, it's ordinary thing he did on me everytime.

Now I really feel emo now and fang kong-ing because realized that english will be most important language after I leave kwang hua. Why I didn't be active in cocu and in academic, I didn't put more effort in strengthing my foundation of english language. many many things were coming out in my mind that time. Urhhh...

Then khoon kheng who was busy for his own work asked me, "what is going on? If we're friends just tell me." sound like forcing me to tell.

"Just about my future" I said. "Your parents have given you so much money what for future..." loon wern interrupted us and I replied "I don't want touch those money." "my mom said she won't bother me and I must collect money myself for future study" Loon wern said again and I don't know how to said then.

Now we're entering september now and form 4 school life will be ended soon. I should plan and use the time left wisely for future before I regret.

I began to grumble that my english is very poor and want to do something to improve it. "I envy those who was born in english-speaking family and study in chinese school. They can cover both languages which valuable nowadays. when I communicating with family members, reading newspaper, chatting with classmates... all using chinese... haizzz" (anyway I still love chinese.)

"Your situation same with me. I also asked my mom before why my dad didn't speak english since we were young. but my mom said 'then why you didn't speak english to dad first '. no comment..." khoon kheng put his work aside and said.

"But you all must know that most of students just you said, dislike chinese." loon wern said. I agreed.

Then the chit-chat circle was hubbub by joining of ruiyun, chia voon and boon keong. we were discussing and giving opinion to improve our english level. My mood became better and forgot the trouble faced temporary when chit-chatting with them.

suddenly... "why don't we speak in engslih from now to practice?" everyone looked at me and I also don't know why the sentence came out from my mouth. Everyone then welcomed this useful policy especially loon wern because he can suan siao-ed me ad with english. But then everyone kept quiet including loon wern who always have many topic to chat, made the atmosphere weird. maybe it's weird when someone who always using chinese, but today talking english with you. lolx... and no much communicated using english, the bell rang ad and everyone said "bye" which no different in chinese, to each other. haha...

On saturday my dad asked me about want to continue subscribing Time, NG and Discovery magazines or not. I nodded my head after discussing with dad. Before that I told dad that stop subscribing because throughout of year just me reading only in my family and expensive too with paying RM 399 every year since last year starting to order. But dad said he's willingly to pay for my own good. Haha... thanks dad~!

Lastly, Gambathe for next week with new policy~!