17岁生日礼物

今天我暂时换去Svenja的位子，这是我理想的座位，因为比起昨天，我好像一整天都和朋友聊天说笑，心情顿时好转起来！没有老师的课堂上，在我听着嘉文和文强聊着钢琴音乐听到没话题时，美琪送给我小册子，很意外。噢！忘了我班同学生日时将会收到来自朋友制成的小册子。瑞云看见后急着邀功似的说封面是她画的。谢啦！然后随手翻阅朋友的简语。

回家后再细读他们的祝福以及一些朋友对我的想法。我惊奇地发现，共有4位朋友希望或是认为我能够踏入政坛成为政治家，LOL。或许中三那年几次与时任华语老师雅桃老师谈过有关政治时事，抑或是去年得空时翻阅报纸，所以他们就对我有这印象吧。听你们这么说，政坛方面我可以保留着，看来我是有潜能的咯！到时要投我一票！

希望你们会看到我的留言。
致 / To：

Jia Wei : 嘿！好朋友。放心，我会尽量克制自己的！竞争成绩？好吧！但不要再下赌注了…

Bee Kee : 确实，我们相知的时候不多，我会尽量参与你们，因为我爱5S1。有时候是我太会批评别人，其实5S1真的很不错，如果我不爱你们，我的中学生涯就会是个不好的回忆，我想吗？当然不啦 XD 其实课业我不会给自己压力，我只烦恼本身的人际关系，所以闷闷不乐而已。谢谢关心！我会努力的。

Olivia : 我们之间很少谈话，有时你看起来很凶，所以有些不敢，LOL。btw, I'll try to join you gang and make a lots of fun~!

Boon Keong : 看了你给我的话，心中燃起青春之火！不过要尽情享受青春年华，还要等毕业过后呢！

Rui Yun : 放心吧！我知道5S1陪着我，不会感到孤独 ＝D

Ray Chia : The only one who write my nickname and say about form 1's stuff, thanks~ But those stuff.... LOL. How come you afraid me once upon that time? And those scandals, haizzz... I still can change target and like others since I don't have gf~ LOL. And that time I was childish and immature lah actually, but now no more those scandal and I'm not loyal to love ad, right? Ehh the one, you know la^^ hush! And I sure won't ignore English~ See now which launguage I used to comment yours? At last, thanks~!

Chia Voon : 噢，我不希望我们的话题只有关scinece club，下次会多聊其他的！hehe...

Yilin : Don't just envy and say I ALWAYS got good result lah, you also not bad what, haha.

Yin Scene : 我会珍惜目前拥有与你们的时光！

Su Yee : Your background designed very nice leh~ Thanks! And you also must be smile always, haha~

Yee Mun : 喔？我很厉害咩，哈哈。Thanks~

Vivian : 没生气，没生气。你说得对，我不太懂得表达自己，所以就这样。但我会多主动参与你们，毕竟我不想一辈子寂寞。

Zhi Xiang : 猜对了，我会把你的祝福写在这儿。谢谢你喜欢我的blog，不过你太少留言啦，所以不懂你浏览我的天地。

Wan Huey : 下次会更健谈，比志享更多话，并少说有关politic的东东，哈哈！

Eng Seng : I'll sit beside you for 2 weeks and I hope we can 相处愉快, haha. SPM all A+ !

Loon Wern : 你真的写love什么的。不错不错，遗爱…5S1~!

Meei Huey : 不愧是band 的，写下生日歌给我，Thanks~ 要永远快乐！

Wency : Monday I got doughnut, today got cake. Thanks~!

Chee Seng : 如果是这样的话，我宁可当政治家，哈哈！

Yann Herng : 虽然不知你想说的是哪方面，但谢啦！

Wee Minn : 好感性的话，不像你leh。我会珍惜与你们的欢乐时光 XD

Sue Lyn : XD Nice!

Chung Lun : hehe~

Wai Hoong : Thanks~

Kah Chun : First time I look at your signature I don't know who the person is, but I know from your handwriting~ haha. Thanks.

Shan Ci, Bee Ying, Khoon Keng : Hi prefects, thanks your wishes. But you know I'm very lonely although we're same row? Haha, next time have fun ya.

Thuan Song : 你啊你，我收到这个册子你才写好祝福给我自己夹进去，LOL。无论如何谢啦！


这本小册子共收集29位友人的文字(相信还会继续增加)，红橙黄绿蓝白相间，大小不一的纸张。虽然不是全班同学写来，但这是我收到最有价值的生日礼物。

17岁生日(感想篇)

回到班上，我们有2节没老师，大家当然闹得不亦乐乎，可是此时更突现我在吵杂欢乐气氛中的寂寞心情。我时而独处，时而想参与朋友，可话题不同什么的，结果还是一人。回到家后，平淡的生活不会因生日而泛起小小涟漪；补习的时候，朋友问我今天是几号，我答“23日”，尔后，一片平静，哀！

大家对我的祝福，并不是以乐趣的方式祝福我，而是基于礼貌而严肃地祝福我。我知道我不该这么想，可心中还是缺少什么滋味似的。毕竟人缘不佳，比起其他同学，我的生日除了祝福，还是祝福，年年如一。没有精美礼物，没有蛋糕，没有浪漫的生日蜡烛，没有派对，没有来自家人亲口对我说的祝福，没有生日歌，没有欢乐，没有喜悦，没有……

没有这一切，只要收到她的祝福，我相信我的生日会是最难忘的；可是，今天没有，原本遭透的心情更遭了。

我知道今年的生日会是这样，可是我更渴望不一样的生日。我知道我不该这么想，因为鲜少参与或者结交好友所造成的，但更失望的是家人的冷漠，难道生日就没什么？我虽然不随波逐流，也认为这种方式不符我的个性，但人最怕寂寞，我想要的是快乐，单纯、嘻嘻哈哈、疯狂… 虽然有人说我不适合…

大家都祝我生日快乐，可是… 我的要求是不是很高？不，是我没好好争取。

那个理想中的生日，对我而言如奢侈品般遥不可及。

生日，对我来说是个既看似熟悉但陌生的一天。

17岁生日

昨天是欣怡的生日(生日快乐！)，同时班上为三月寿星庆祝生日，班长捧出装有6个甜甜圈的盒子，全班为我们6人唱生日歌。我们很开心，选了甜甜圈站在班前吃，哈哈。

今早抵达课室，如往常般，放下书包，钟声也响起了，上的是华文课。我坐在风扇底下的瑞云座位上，这时美惠祝福我说“生日快乐！”。我向她道谢，并说“你是今天第一位祝福我的人！”，美惠“Yes!”了一声，然后嘉文、伟能也争着做第二和第三位，LOL。课堂上，老师也讲解一篇唐诗，有文学气息的一课，我喜欢。

然后，我们被叫去参观书展，Eric也祝福我，并问起他是第几个祝福我的朋友，我说是第四位，在旁的嘉玮不屑地说他想成为最后一位，无言。S7的朋友振杉因为我的提醒而前来祝福我，哈。回到班上不久，美琪、志享异口同声祝我生日快乐，我先是一愣，然后有点慌乱地道谢他们。哎！看来我真是不习惯朋友突如其来的祝福，谁叫我鲜少参与他们，不过心里甜滋滋的。我也收到琬惠、冠翔、凯胜、章毅、诗明亲口祝福。

中午12时，我们5S1全班到广场拍班级照，一张是正规，另一张是搞笑或是欢乐的。可惜我班之前没计划好，10秒后所拍下的镜头不知会是如何？但大家不是很满意，可惜。今天文强告诉我他的女伴和我同一天生日；志成也说他姐姐也是，好巧。

现在我终于踏入17岁了。我为自己许了三大愿望：
一、中学生涯 (考取卓越成绩、学术表现有成就)
二、自由 (考取P驾照、离开规则处处的学校生活、奔向心中的志向)
三、(秘密) :-)

三月假期简述

假期终于来了！可是，身边的朋友在假期之前叹惜不已，因为这将是忙碌的假期。对中五生而言内心的呼唤更强烈，因为除了课外活动，还要忙碌于学校功课和补习之间…… 我也感同深受。

这个假期虽然不需要上课，但只不过比读书天睡迟了点儿，因为还得上补习班，而且是一补就补了两三小时。五天当中，就属星期三最苦，从早上8时上中国文学至11时，然后匆匆赶去上会计补习至下午2时，算算6小时没进食了，好饿。不过补习趁着假期填补课业的不足，好让我开学后才能与学校教导的进度接轨。

这个假期我有回校两次，一次是去观赏校园戏剧组呈献的演出，另一个是出席科学学会的活动。至于朋友的聚会，我班的没有进行，而小六同窗的基于尊重朋友而取消了。而最近收到友人遭遇不幸的消息，深感同情，愿她节哀顺变。

今天是三月假期的最后一天，昨日我在facebook上发贴问：你们将会在假期的最后一天干什么？结果所有留言的网友异口同声说“拼功课”，我也不例外，哀哉。不过我的功课早已完成一部分，不需要挑灯在最后一分钟冲刺，哈哈。

这个假期好想是假期，可是好想不是假期；这个假期好想可以休息，可是又好想忙到不能休息。

真是忙碌又奇怪的假期。

就这样，9天的假期如一缕轻烟般消失了。可是瞥了瞥桌上的月历，下一个长假要等到六月。

13 March~ Watching DMC performance

Today is the first day of March holidays. At 4 pm I reached kwang hua private school to watch the drama performed by DMC of our school. I sat with khai shern on third row because it is the best position to watch the drama. The hall is crowded with many audience and became noisy. On 4.30 pm the drama is began with the description of three tarot card meanings which symbolises the themes of drama.

The theme of first drama is caring of family with title "pass by happiness"路过幸福. The story is about xiaowen, a student who has a bad academic result since she entering secondary school and always bully her classmates due to her rich background. But she did that because just want to have attention from her parents who always busy in their career. One day, she quarrels with them and her friend, peixuan suggests to plan a kidnap to test the concern of thier parents towards her. But it was a trick because peixuan was jealous her has parents but didn't appreciate and killed her. Xiaowen was refreshing the memories in past about the caring of her parents to her, and she passed away......

My brother also took part in the drama as xiaowen's father. I worried him because scared he did NG but at last he performed well~! I'm proud of his profesional in drama performance. I crapped hands when the drama is finish shown as encouragement and respect.

The next theme of drama is evilness of one's after being hurt mentally in life and the title is "Black and White". This time the main character is jun hong who acts as the poor guy, called Genong. He killed his mom when he was out of control due to domestic violence by his mom. Then he became beggar controlled by gangster and someone cheated his money, causing him desperated. His life was changed when met with a mysterious man. He killed people who tried to cheat him and having extremely mental desperated. Finally he self-surrendered and be punished hanging to death. Jun hong was acting well and I was shocked that he had performed perfectly for his characterisation of craziness.

After we took a break for 10 minutes, we continued watching the drama "Green Romance". Lai peng is the main character, called "a little girl". In the drama, she wanted to commit suicide when she having the conflicts in life but rescued by an aborigine, called Alor. They were falling in love each other after being stay together fews day. The two main characters always sing the songs to express thier feelings. Nice job~! This drama is romantic and didn't have the scenes of murder like in other two dramas.

The performance was ended at 6 pm. While I'm waiting my parents I followed my friends to have meal outside. We were chit-chatting, make joke and eating. We had a good time there.

That's all. =)

11 March~ 2009 SPM result released day

We had the blood test in laboratory when biology lesson. After that when we went back to class, we enjoyed the free time as there were no teacher there. I had a nice chit-chat with yilin XD

It was around 10 am already and I gonna go to kwang hua square to meet with ex-seniors as I promised them. The square was crowded with many ex-students who worried for their result but joyful because they met and chatted with thier friends. Most of them fashionably dressed and make-up. Nice man~! I hope I can free from meaningless school regulations of wearing.

I saw lingwei taking her result and she saw me too~! We were excited and chit-chatting, and she got all As except for mandarin. Then I saw xinyi but she didn't saw me because she was busy with her freinds. It was great when knew that xinyi got straight As in SPM. I asked them where is yoon voon but lingwei said she maybe will come late. I had saw thier result papers and made an analysis based on both papers. I laughted lingwei because she got A- for her moral, LOL, how bad am I. But then xinyi also got the same grade. I was curious of that and worried that if moral is so tough, then how about other subjects. But they all got A+ for their malay and english, congratulation to them~!

Finally yoon voon came already and everyone focused to her result because she took 13 subjects. Congratulation to her as she gained all As (included 8A+) except for mandarin, again. She was too happy and hugged me tight. I was happy and proud of her~

The atmosphere at kwang hua square still noisy and joyful. The students gathered for chit-chatting and thanked to teachers who also proud of them. I like such a feeling, althought some of them crying for the results, because most of them statisfied thier result and had a good ending after being tried the best at the end of secondary school life.

The time we standing here will be the day after one year. I hope everyone will happy with their results :)

遗憾

休息过后的第二节是道德教育，老师没来，班上一片欢腾。又多了一段空节，我也不知该做些什么，四处跑去其他人的座位，来到美惠的附近。这时我发现美惠一拐一拐地走向她的座位，原来她的脚受伤了(=.=||| 抱歉事前不知道)，而且伤势不轻。她一人坐着，四周围空空的，倍感凄凉(哈哈！)。所以我坐在她面前，起初问她有关下一个6M的聚会，然后我们开始聊考试的东西，不知为何，我们各自谈到在学业以及生活方面的遗憾。

“我遗憾化学最高分得主不是我。”
“如果你认为遗憾，那我可比你遗憾多了，3年始终不属于我。”
“还有还有，我中二时科学也饮恨让给其他人。”
“美惠，我所说的是科学！中一时得满分！可是一名女生与我同分，而我却输在第一次大考分数；中二那年你和另一女生得满分，我一分之差就与你们平起平坐。”
“可是第一次大考的分数她比我高，我很遗憾那一次。”
“可你在中三荣获了啊，而我再次遗憾。还记得那年考卷(预考)很难，很多人拿B等，可我是续你之后分数第二高，虽然分数相差6分，哈哈。”
“你知道为何我很在意中二那年？因为我竟踏错一步少了一分！(一失足成千古恨) 如果我与你们同分，我相信我第一次大考的分数比你们高。”
“哎呀…你再怎么遗憾也不比我多。其实老师问过我是否重批她的试卷，我不想伤感情而敷衍老师说算了吧。不说你不知，我们第一次大考、第三、第二月考同分！唯败在第一月考，差一分。结果眼睁睁看着她夺下化学。”
“结果，她共夺走两科最高分的…而你什么也没有。其实你应该告诉老师说重批时，如果她的试卷有错误才扣分。”
“对！早知如此，我应该这么说。”
“当时的你很不理智。我想说的是，应该不言放弃争取，况且这项竞争是公平、良性的，伤什么感情？”
“遗憾… 我也遗憾上次去吕老师家拜年时，没拿STPM普通科参考书。”
“哦？”
“其实我对其里面的东西有兴趣，可当时怕你们嘲笑我这么早拿STPM的书什么什么的，最后作罢。”
“哎哟，你没看到我当时拿最多书的吗？别说我贪心，可那些参考书对我和弟妹有所帮助，况且老师的丈夫是书商，那些样本是出版商送给他，他没用到迟早也会送人或是丢弃。是吗？”
“嗯。还有，我遗憾去年没问亲戚是否有去观赏一场自己好想去的精彩演出。如果有问的话，就不会遗憾吧。”

(以上对话不含敏感课题，纯属个人意见，愿共享之)

此时钟声响起了，我们的谈话来到尾声。最后我们总结刚才的谈话“当机会摆在你眼前时，必须好好珍惜；当它不属于你，也得去争取。可是没有了机会，留下的是遗憾……”虽然这句话大家都听过了，但还是要提醒大家。

在此也祝福美惠早日康复。让我们一起把握时机，争取自己想要的东西，不再留下遗憾。