《天使街23号》

这几天心情糟透了。除了三天就遭到二连败，家事也困绕着我。虽然事小，但近几天发生太多不愉快的事，心中难免有些郁闷，我都只能默默承受。一人浏览社交网页，想了想，还是不要把烦恼贴在网页，反正大家只把它当作盲点。

入寝前的星期五晚上，我浏览房中的书橱，随手拿出封尘已久的《天使街23号》。我重温小说中的内容，想起我中二时曾经借朋友的来读，但没读第二册。今天终于读完了第一册，心中便迫不及待地想读下一册…… 啊！我想我找到抛开烦恼的方法。

小说中叙述的是一群青春年华的男女在高中的校园生活，间中还有他们之间的友情、爱情故事。虽说书中的内容不可能出现在现实中，但相信旁观的读者仿佛身陷其中，羡慕这群少男少女精彩的生活。

我很享受阅读的过程，渴望这些生活，可我高中校园生活快接近尾声，而且考试的跫音渐近……

一切美好的梦境只能透过小说幻想……  读了《天使街23号》，我暂时放下烦恼，期待接下去发生的趣事。

Ready to get P licence~

I woke up at 6.40am for preparing myself. I felt good but tired because yesterday night was too warm made me can't sleep well. I moved to the agency before they fetch me and some of them to JPJ driving test centre at 8.00 am.

I was candidate number 47 of session two, so I had to wait in air-con place until 10am to register. I sat down there and watched session one's candidates took their test, and I felt nervous too. That time someone introduced himself and chatted with me. Amin is friendly and we chatted about driving skills, school life and FIFA World Cup. I'm glad to have new friend and I felt better rather than wait for nothingness until nervous.

At 10.20am, session two's candidates were called to take their number tags and moved outside. After the instructor gave a speech, we waited for our turns to take Section II test. It was 12 noon when was my turn and I completed the three tests sucessfully in 15 minutes without mistake, having engine stall and using second chance! I satisfied my performance. =)

I passed up the results to the instructor for waiting Section III. But then Section III for session one hasn't finish yet and the day was getting hotter. ZZZ. Then Amin and I had nasi lemak as lunch and I know Amin's friend who is Boon. Afterward we turned back for waiting and this time I chatted a lots with Boon. He is a student of 1st science class from High school and I took the opportunity to chat with him about my primary ex-classmates. Boon told me Jason still plays his pokemon cards, LOL. And again I'm happy to have a new freind. Lastly road test for session two began and we were lucky because the JPJ officers chose the short road.

At 2.40pm, the day turned windy and cloudy. Boon chatted with his mom via phone just now and he told us there was raining at Eng Ann Garden. Then we heard thunder and another THEN was raining. And yet still weren't our turns since the people became lesser and lesser. Boon had to take his test in raining day and he passed the road test. Congratulations, Boon!

"47!" My turn finally. That time the rain stopped. When I was on seat, I did what I had done during practice and started the road test. Amazingly I managed to be calm down and drove the car as normal because there was another student drove in front of mine. I drove back to institute without engine stall and safe! I got 18 out of 20 aspects of road test!

Ah Boon (the instructor) congratulated me and I did the other procedure. Before leaving the institute, Boon and I shared our experiences and happiness of achieving good result. That time Amin was having the road test and I didn't say good bye to him. Wish he pass his test!

Then the instructor Ah Boon fetched me back and I gave him my photo. He said I will receive the P licence at this friday or next monday. So fast so good! I surfed the net and received an invitation from someone on facebook, and he is Boon. We still had chat on net =)

Now I can officially announce that I PASS all of JPJ test without engine stall and with the first time, that's main point! Here I want to thank my instructors Mr Azizee and Ah Boon for teaching me the driving skills. It sure is a part of my life experience to have driving licence and two new friends who is Amin and Boon. Keep in touch!

新学期

比起昨日闷热的课室，今天清晨凉风习习，终日坐在最旁边的我感受着窗外吹进来的晨风，觉得十分凉快，内心也凉了半截。新学期这两天所经历的事儿，我在喧哗的人群中一人深思。

新学期伊始，课内外活动接踵而来，大家开始忙碌起来，当中难免有些压力。不过比起大家面对琐碎的事务，我相信我的压力如千斤重般久久无法放下。是的，人际关系，一项高门槛的学问，与我近乎无缘的玩意儿。短短的半年中学生涯快结束了。沉默是金不再管用，打交道又被人排挤，甚至误解。能真正与我聊天的同学很少，相识不相知的多，如今出现难相处的。哎！我只能所凡事没有十全十美。

做回自己？感觉上是在搞孤僻；尽量参与，真的很需要时间。多次为赋强说愁的我始终如此，无言，默然活在一人的世界，静思悟。

目前为止，中五时期是遇上最多conflict的一年，羡慕大家都能尽情享受这青春年华。我的烦恼不仅如此，不过细说也无处。

回到家，我充泡一杯咖啡，暖和和的。然后我编排时间表。写好后，放下笔，还是想起心中的烦恼儿，觉得紧凑的活动时间表不过如此，应付得来。呷了一口已冷却的咖啡，感觉苦涩的咖啡变得无味，莫非我想太多而忘了咖啡的存在？

What I done for half of holidays?

After three weeks sitting for examination, but I still have English tuition and when I reached home, finally I can sleep earlier and until I woke up without ringtone. And 2-week holidays began finally .

5 June and it was also public holiday, my parents brought us to Mines exhibition centre for visiting book fair Read Malaysia 2010. As usual I loiterred around randomly to look for my favourite books and some exhibition highlights. I had bought 3 romance novels, a ghost tale novel and Reader's Digest of June. I was dissapointed because some chinese and taiwanese books are too expensive, especially chinese books sold at exactly values on the cover which using rbm . Don't the booksellers know that currency rates between RM and RMB? Then I loiterred around Mines mall for window shopping. At 5.00 pm, we went back to Klang and had bah kut teh as dinner.

The books

Beginning of weekdays, numerous of tuitions waiting for me to follow! 7 June, I had malay language class with grace tay and doing rumusan. My friends asked where is loon wern and I replied that he didn't attend for class because he had followed a course at KL. That time I also hesitated whether wanna follow loon wern to attend the course or not. Khoon kheng said it was too costly for him and he will try to revise himself. That night I called loon wern about how was the course and asked for some details.

8 June. I attended English tuition in the morning and Principles of accounting at noon. Ms Angelina gave us writing essays and I tried my best to write although lack of ideas. English language, which is the subject that I really need to put the most of time and effort to improve, but it was no time to revise English during this holidays. Haizz..

9 June. After listening some friends' suggestions with my willingness (to the course), I had made decision for attending the Maths Olympiad preparation course 2010 for 2 days. I woke up at 6.45 am to prepare and went to loon wern's house at 7.30 am. Then his father brought us to International Youth Centre at bandar Tun Razak. The surrounding of centre was too quiet, is here International Youth Centre? Before the course began, each of us introduced ourselves. There were 15 students and half of them are from SMK seafield, 2 of them from Johore (wow!), 2 girls, another 2 of them are form 2 guys and 2 are from SMJK kwang hua, who are also oldest among of students! First day, the tutor, Mr Suhaimi Ramly taught us number theory and algebra. He introduced concepts of Arithmetic Modulo and Sum of Powers. He gave us some examples and problems solving to strenghthen what we had learnt. At 4.30pm, the course ended and we had teatime and went to library there before went back to hometown. It was great~! I took some time to revise and try to solve a question he gave. But I failed to solve it...

Loon wern took this photo without inform me..zzz...

10 June. The centre was noisy and crowded with teenagers, haha. We were the first attendance when entering the classroom. Seen Mr Suhaimi has plenty of questions downloaded in his laptop, we took the opportunity to plead him giving us the mathematical questions with pendrive. But he just gave us one of numerous pdf-ed documents. I hope I can own his laptop! Before the course began at 9 am, he guided us to solve the problem given yesterday. We surprised that the problem is actually easy to be solved and we just thought until complicated and wrong methods. Then he taught us the next two topics which is combinatorics and geometry. Combinatorics is the part that I really don't know and luckily he taught us in easy way. For geometry, he just gave us some questions to solve as we had learnt the geometry knowledge in school. Most of the problems require us to do provement. Geometry is my favourite part and I quite handle it as well. After we did a provement for the last geometry question, it was time to say goodbye to the course. We asked some questions regarding National Maths Olympiad (OMK). Before leaving the room, we thanked to Mr Suhaimi. He replied that he hopes to see our name in the winner list of OMK. At 4.45pm, we left the centre.

After the course, I can say that it is worth to pay RM 300 to the course for 2 days because it is esay to understand when someone guide you and of course, I love pure maths rather than formulae-ed maths.

11 June. I had English tuition that day. After this day, I just left half of holiday to be proceed. Starting tomorrow weekends I will attend driving course. Hope I will learn well... And the World Cup begins finally~! However I won't watch the match whole time because I have no more time. But I will follow the results and catch up some interesting scene. South Africa vs Mexico match ended with 1-1. XD

五月

我最爱的周末，不知为何今天觉得闷闷不乐，心中总是想了很多事，都是解不开的心结。

来到年中了，考试进行着。往年我视考试为平常事，觉得可以应付。可是今年的我越来越讨厌考试。这就遭了，做自己厌恶的事很痛苦。考试的气氛凝重，压得我喘不过气，无奈，还是无奈。除了惰性，就是缺乏坚强意志。

来到年中了，人际关系雪上加霜，永远是我的心头痛。与班上同学相识不相知，而且有些刻意不想与我相处。坐的位子前后左右不说话；开个玩笑大家觉得我是认真的；别人得罪没有事，我激动就有人不爽；别人可以共有的东西就没有我的份。友人有次对我说，如果在这儿的形象不好，转校有个新环境重新塑造形象。正是不公平、无言。可谁愿意从旁关心我？谁可以善意地提醒我？谁可以帮助我改过自新？我有心无力…

考试压力再加上孤独应付，心里倍感压迫。

是时候找个时间调适自己。六月中假，期待它的到来。

来到2010年的三分之一

今天是4月的最后一天，可迎接我的却是倒霉的一天，就像小学做的作文那样“倒霉的一天”。

我从没想过之前如此渴望得到的入场券，当叫到我的名字时，换来的不是掌声……拿着试卷时，我愣在一旁，竟然犯下不该犯的错，顿时恍然大悟。我心烦意乱，友人得到的成绩、老师“特意”的安慰、没有同学的关心……大家似乎享受这堂课，时而哄堂大笑，而我的内心好难过，不是因为分数，而是当我在忧愁的时候始终得不到慰问。当眼泪似乎在眼帘滚动，可男儿眼泪不轻弹，我只好咽进心头，不表露当时的心情……

今天一连5节没有老师，这是我最害怕的时候，因为吵杂的环境不适合温习功课，但苦于没有知己朋友闲聊。就这样我虚度了光阴。

英文节的时候，老师分派试卷一，当同学看着自己的成绩，加上老师的苦诉，整班弥漫着严肃失望的气氛。哎！英文永远是我的心头痛。

今天也是留校的日子，我在图书馆阅书，读着读着困倦了。然后打算活动身子，便在校园里绕一圈，也观察了人事物。食堂里一群朋友一块儿聊天吃东西；活动中心里大家忙着练舞；球场上一班兄弟打篮球；课室里发出朗朗的读书声；树荫下情侣相依相偎……我想在校园里只有图书馆能够容纳我的存在。

下午4时，我正要去补习，此时天不作美，下起倾盆大雨。忘了带伞的我只好留在候车亭内等呀等。等待，是美好的，但漫无目的的等待却是痛苦的。结果等到5时，雨势转弱了，我才赶路，虽然已经迟到了。到了补习中心，纵然没有淋到落汤鸡，但望着有父母护送到来的别人，使遭透的心情变得更遭了，因为最近父母无暇载送我了。为了学习，我得像苦行僧，而不像他们。

写到这儿，我的视线模糊了……

不过今天有一部小插曲：我回到图书馆时，发现一本书掉落在我书包旁。由于这本书蛮新的，而且在显眼的部分，所以我离开时有点印象，想也没想便放回原处。此时她的主人来了，她表明她正好找这本书，我向她解释。然后她问我是否有部落格名叫"Michael Lim"，我惊讶地回答“是啊。”“我有读过你的部落格。”她说。“哦？”“你的华语很好。”“谢谢。”我表示礼貌。

我感到很开心，因为得到某某的赞赏，哈哈，想不到她是我隔壁班的同学。今天有这么多不开心的事，就以这段令人鼓舞的对话做为尾声吧。

4月8日

前几天我完成驾驶理论测试和听了3小时的理论课。下午3时，我来到学车代理商，然后我被载到总部去。登记后，我坐在等待处。我观察四周，空无一人，只有柜台小姐处理文件，外头有几人正学习骑摩托车。不久，他们进来归还头盔和反光衣，而许多人同时也上完理论课来到柜台登记，一时间这里很吵杂。此时一名马来男子告诉我有关待会儿3小时的细节，我才知道他是教导我驾车的指导人。他问我现在心情是否很紧张，我回答说平常心情。

炎热的午后4时30分，他载我到模拟马路的一棵树下。他讲解有关手动变速器和各类踏板的功能，这些我在理论课都理解了。然后他叫我坐在司机座驾车，结果车子几次抛锚，看来除了理论(theory)，实践(practical)方面得加强。整个过程我只用到一号排挡，而且鲜少踩加速器，让车子向前走，在转角才拐弯，可是车子一直跨过反向道。我问他为何会这样，他说当车子来到转角时，得靠直觉才拐弯，不是到了才转动方向盘。在几次驾车驶过狭窄的S形路线，庆幸我能控制方向盘，要不然就撞到路障。

然后他教我驾车爬斜坡，并讲解考官在这项测试的评分标准。可是这个项目很多步骤，踩油、更换排挡、踩离合器、煞车，结果失败了。然后他讲解路边泊车(side-parking)的步骤，然后在一旁督导我。当时也有其他人学习路边泊车、爬斜坡等。经过几次尝试，我终于掌握了这项技巧。

此时下起了毛毛雨，他载我来到一间马来茶餐室，他请我喝茶。他吸了一口烟，问我要不要抽，我拒绝，“Bagus.”他说。我们边休息边聊天。他述说他往日的事，他的语气，充满遗憾与后悔。当中他也几次说福建话的粗话，或许他不了解这些是不雅言语，没辙。他来自马六甲，中学时期在一所技术学校上课，可是参与的朋友都是不良分子，来自三大种族。他告诉我说他家乡一马来青年非法骑摩托车，撞伤一名印裔青年，结果那个印裔青年召来同胞兄弟痛殴马来青年… 他后悔地告诉我：“当初他拒绝政府提供他奖学金攻读工程系，要是当初接受的话，我现在就没教你了。”我笑一笑，继续听他说：“…但我也感恩上苍给予我现在拥有的一切，生活还不错。”

接近晚上7时，他载我回总部。在车上，他说了许多事，表明他对一些政治人物存有种族主义感到失望，他不是那般人那样，希望各族和平共处。另外他说，通常来这儿学驾车的华人都找阿文(学车总部的唯一华裔指导人)，下次当我正式学习驾车时可要求更换指导人。这时我问他：“你怎么说这些话？我可不是种族主义者什么的。”他说没什么，纯粹说说。

回到总部，柜台空无一人，我登记check out。然后阿文载我回家。(噢！原来他就是住在我家附近的唯一华裔指导人)  在车上，(我在几次尝试路边泊车时他也正指导其他初学者) 他问我刚才路旁泊车有哪些步骤，我告诉了他。而我也问他一些不明白的地方，他讲解得很清除，我们谈得很愉快。

我在想：那名马来男子是不是希望我申请他为我的指导人？可是我希望接下来9小时学习会是华裔来指导我，不是基于种族肤色作为考量，而是语言沟通不成问题吧，因为我希望将来我能够真正掌握驾驶技巧。

杂谈在校园时的心情

今天华语节没老师，我们多了自习时间。这个时段我尽量向同学请教物理难题，可是抡温说我应该真正思考题目找出答案，哪怕一题得用上30分钟。其实我之前已思考这些题目，但死脑筋转不快，所以虚心讨教，但在榜上名次稍前的他们的举止似乎不想教导我。虽然最后了解题目了，但心中有种不快的感受。我会证明给你们，你们的位子迟早坐不稳。

我在想：我是否不该在这项比赛集训中插上一脚？如果我没有对物理知识的天资，那勤奋是否能补救？我不甘心我不是榜首的那一位，因为讨教的对象是同学，得看他们的脸色，可我真的有资格渴望吗？时间、行程、计划、考试…… 没安排好。

今天放学后，我没直接回家，留在校园等待下午4时30分的补习。我用好午膳后，在学楼与自行车棚之间的石路一人漫步着，看看路边的人事物。来到候车亭，见到一群朋友围着圆桌聊天，我们打个招呼，她两次问我：“你一个人吗？”“是的，你呢？”我回答。“Har...你一人不是很显。我们等下去JJ陪朋友买东西。”她说。“哦…哈哈。Bye” 然后没有话题，我走到大树下的小径远处了望。车子飞驰而过，几位同学步行…… 我呆望着，看见这一切。此时，我见到远处一对男女拉拉扯扯，情况好像很生气的样子。不知他们是什么关系，不晓得他们之间发生什么事。然后他们转身走人，男的朝前方走去，女的朝我这儿方向走来，拐弯。出于无聊，我为刚才所见到的事自编故事……

冷不防，“boom!”的一声，在我耳边响起，我吓着了，回过神来，原来是Vivian两姐妹作弄我。“呼…吓死我了。”，但她俩笑个不停，哈哈，真是顽皮。不过说实在的，自从今年以后我俩鲜少在这儿碰面、聊天。虽然你仍称我为“老师”，可时过境迁，没有以前那种欢乐的感觉。或许大家都忙碌无暇，鲜少相处吧。

每次留校的空闲时光，图书馆是我必经之地。来到图书馆，挑了高数课本，然后开始做习题。过后嘉俊和俊翰也来到这儿，我们仨围在一起聊天、阅报、做功课。在嘉俊离开当儿，我与俊翰聊天。我开场白问他是否会出席年终班级旅行，他说明几个理由，然后说“不会。”我说：“那你岂不是无法陪着我们？虽然我们相聚时间两、三年，但毕竟SPM考试过了，而且最后一次聚会，就来参与吧”他表明很想去，但种种因素而作罢。我套用美琪给我寄语中的话告诉他：“我们相识多年，但相知的时间却很少。”我又说：“说实在的，班上的同学大都觉得你很孤僻，所以……”“就好像陈老师(教化学的)当时说我样子很serious，是不是？”他问“是的。”我答。接着我们谈谈小学趣事、前途，分享自己的志向。其实，我并不讨厌他。

接近下午4时，透过窗子，看见豆大的雨水在空中飘着、落下；不久后雨停了。嘉俊也回来了，我们三人背着书包放到候车亭去，然后闲聊。我发现我们现在有个共同点，那就是等待补习而留校。时候差不多了，我是我们仨第一位离开的人。向他们道别后，我一个人上路。

17岁生日礼物

今天我暂时换去Svenja的位子，这是我理想的座位，因为比起昨天，我好像一整天都和朋友聊天说笑，心情顿时好转起来！没有老师的课堂上，在我听着嘉文和文强聊着钢琴音乐听到没话题时，美琪送给我小册子，很意外。噢！忘了我班同学生日时将会收到来自朋友制成的小册子。瑞云看见后急着邀功似的说封面是她画的。谢啦！然后随手翻阅朋友的简语。

回家后再细读他们的祝福以及一些朋友对我的想法。我惊奇地发现，共有4位朋友希望或是认为我能够踏入政坛成为政治家，LOL。或许中三那年几次与时任华语老师雅桃老师谈过有关政治时事，抑或是去年得空时翻阅报纸，所以他们就对我有这印象吧。听你们这么说，政坛方面我可以保留着，看来我是有潜能的咯！到时要投我一票！

希望你们会看到我的留言。
致 / To：

Jia Wei : 嘿！好朋友。放心，我会尽量克制自己的！竞争成绩？好吧！但不要再下赌注了…

Bee Kee : 确实，我们相知的时候不多，我会尽量参与你们，因为我爱5S1。有时候是我太会批评别人，其实5S1真的很不错，如果我不爱你们，我的中学生涯就会是个不好的回忆，我想吗？当然不啦 XD 其实课业我不会给自己压力，我只烦恼本身的人际关系，所以闷闷不乐而已。谢谢关心！我会努力的。

Olivia : 我们之间很少谈话，有时你看起来很凶，所以有些不敢，LOL。btw, I'll try to join you gang and make a lots of fun~!

Boon Keong : 看了你给我的话，心中燃起青春之火！不过要尽情享受青春年华，还要等毕业过后呢！

Rui Yun : 放心吧！我知道5S1陪着我，不会感到孤独 ＝D

Ray Chia : The only one who write my nickname and say about form 1's stuff, thanks~ But those stuff.... LOL. How come you afraid me once upon that time? And those scandals, haizzz... I still can change target and like others since I don't have gf~ LOL. And that time I was childish and immature lah actually, but now no more those scandal and I'm not loyal to love ad, right? Ehh the one, you know la^^ hush! And I sure won't ignore English~ See now which launguage I used to comment yours? At last, thanks~!

Chia Voon : 噢，我不希望我们的话题只有关scinece club，下次会多聊其他的！hehe...

Yilin : Don't just envy and say I ALWAYS got good result lah, you also not bad what, haha.

Yin Scene : 我会珍惜目前拥有与你们的时光！

Su Yee : Your background designed very nice leh~ Thanks! And you also must be smile always, haha~

Yee Mun : 喔？我很厉害咩，哈哈。Thanks~

Vivian : 没生气，没生气。你说得对，我不太懂得表达自己，所以就这样。但我会多主动参与你们，毕竟我不想一辈子寂寞。

Zhi Xiang : 猜对了，我会把你的祝福写在这儿。谢谢你喜欢我的blog，不过你太少留言啦，所以不懂你浏览我的天地。

Wan Huey : 下次会更健谈，比志享更多话，并少说有关politic的东东，哈哈！

Eng Seng : I'll sit beside you for 2 weeks and I hope we can 相处愉快, haha. SPM all A+ !

Loon Wern : 你真的写love什么的。不错不错，遗爱…5S1~!

Meei Huey : 不愧是band 的，写下生日歌给我，Thanks~ 要永远快乐！

Wency : Monday I got doughnut, today got cake. Thanks~!

Chee Seng : 如果是这样的话，我宁可当政治家，哈哈！

Yann Herng : 虽然不知你想说的是哪方面，但谢啦！

Wee Minn : 好感性的话，不像你leh。我会珍惜与你们的欢乐时光 XD

Sue Lyn : XD Nice!

Chung Lun : hehe~

Wai Hoong : Thanks~

Kah Chun : First time I look at your signature I don't know who the person is, but I know from your handwriting~ haha. Thanks.

Shan Ci, Bee Ying, Khoon Keng : Hi prefects, thanks your wishes. But you know I'm very lonely although we're same row? Haha, next time have fun ya.

Thuan Song : 你啊你，我收到这个册子你才写好祝福给我自己夹进去，LOL。无论如何谢啦！


这本小册子共收集29位友人的文字(相信还会继续增加)，红橙黄绿蓝白相间，大小不一的纸张。虽然不是全班同学写来，但这是我收到最有价值的生日礼物。

17岁生日(感想篇)

回到班上，我们有2节没老师，大家当然闹得不亦乐乎，可是此时更突现我在吵杂欢乐气氛中的寂寞心情。我时而独处，时而想参与朋友，可话题不同什么的，结果还是一人。回到家后，平淡的生活不会因生日而泛起小小涟漪；补习的时候，朋友问我今天是几号，我答“23日”，尔后，一片平静，哀！

大家对我的祝福，并不是以乐趣的方式祝福我，而是基于礼貌而严肃地祝福我。我知道我不该这么想，可心中还是缺少什么滋味似的。毕竟人缘不佳，比起其他同学，我的生日除了祝福，还是祝福，年年如一。没有精美礼物，没有蛋糕，没有浪漫的生日蜡烛，没有派对，没有来自家人亲口对我说的祝福，没有生日歌，没有欢乐，没有喜悦，没有……

没有这一切，只要收到她的祝福，我相信我的生日会是最难忘的；可是，今天没有，原本遭透的心情更遭了。

我知道今年的生日会是这样，可是我更渴望不一样的生日。我知道我不该这么想，因为鲜少参与或者结交好友所造成的，但更失望的是家人的冷漠，难道生日就没什么？我虽然不随波逐流，也认为这种方式不符我的个性，但人最怕寂寞，我想要的是快乐，单纯、嘻嘻哈哈、疯狂… 虽然有人说我不适合…

大家都祝我生日快乐，可是… 我的要求是不是很高？不，是我没好好争取。

那个理想中的生日，对我而言如奢侈品般遥不可及。

生日，对我来说是个既看似熟悉但陌生的一天。

17岁生日

昨天是欣怡的生日(生日快乐！)，同时班上为三月寿星庆祝生日，班长捧出装有6个甜甜圈的盒子，全班为我们6人唱生日歌。我们很开心，选了甜甜圈站在班前吃，哈哈。

今早抵达课室，如往常般，放下书包，钟声也响起了，上的是华文课。我坐在风扇底下的瑞云座位上，这时美惠祝福我说“生日快乐！”。我向她道谢，并说“你是今天第一位祝福我的人！”，美惠“Yes!”了一声，然后嘉文、伟能也争着做第二和第三位，LOL。课堂上，老师也讲解一篇唐诗，有文学气息的一课，我喜欢。

然后，我们被叫去参观书展，Eric也祝福我，并问起他是第几个祝福我的朋友，我说是第四位，在旁的嘉玮不屑地说他想成为最后一位，无言。S7的朋友振杉因为我的提醒而前来祝福我，哈。回到班上不久，美琪、志享异口同声祝我生日快乐，我先是一愣，然后有点慌乱地道谢他们。哎！看来我真是不习惯朋友突如其来的祝福，谁叫我鲜少参与他们，不过心里甜滋滋的。我也收到琬惠、冠翔、凯胜、章毅、诗明亲口祝福。

中午12时，我们5S1全班到广场拍班级照，一张是正规，另一张是搞笑或是欢乐的。可惜我班之前没计划好，10秒后所拍下的镜头不知会是如何？但大家不是很满意，可惜。今天文强告诉我他的女伴和我同一天生日；志成也说他姐姐也是，好巧。

现在我终于踏入17岁了。我为自己许了三大愿望：
一、中学生涯 (考取卓越成绩、学术表现有成就)
二、自由 (考取P驾照、离开规则处处的学校生活、奔向心中的志向)
三、(秘密) :-)

三月假期简述

假期终于来了！可是，身边的朋友在假期之前叹惜不已，因为这将是忙碌的假期。对中五生而言内心的呼唤更强烈，因为除了课外活动，还要忙碌于学校功课和补习之间…… 我也感同深受。

这个假期虽然不需要上课，但只不过比读书天睡迟了点儿，因为还得上补习班，而且是一补就补了两三小时。五天当中，就属星期三最苦，从早上8时上中国文学至11时，然后匆匆赶去上会计补习至下午2时，算算6小时没进食了，好饿。不过补习趁着假期填补课业的不足，好让我开学后才能与学校教导的进度接轨。

这个假期我有回校两次，一次是去观赏校园戏剧组呈献的演出，另一个是出席科学学会的活动。至于朋友的聚会，我班的没有进行，而小六同窗的基于尊重朋友而取消了。而最近收到友人遭遇不幸的消息，深感同情，愿她节哀顺变。

今天是三月假期的最后一天，昨日我在facebook上发贴问：你们将会在假期的最后一天干什么？结果所有留言的网友异口同声说“拼功课”，我也不例外，哀哉。不过我的功课早已完成一部分，不需要挑灯在最后一分钟冲刺，哈哈。

这个假期好想是假期，可是好想不是假期；这个假期好想可以休息，可是又好想忙到不能休息。

真是忙碌又奇怪的假期。

就这样，9天的假期如一缕轻烟般消失了。可是瞥了瞥桌上的月历，下一个长假要等到六月。

13 March~ Watching DMC performance

Today is the first day of March holidays. At 4 pm I reached kwang hua private school to watch the drama performed by DMC of our school. I sat with khai shern on third row because it is the best position to watch the drama. The hall is crowded with many audience and became noisy. On 4.30 pm the drama is began with the description of three tarot card meanings which symbolises the themes of drama.

The theme of first drama is caring of family with title "pass by happiness"路过幸福. The story is about xiaowen, a student who has a bad academic result since she entering secondary school and always bully her classmates due to her rich background. But she did that because just want to have attention from her parents who always busy in their career. One day, she quarrels with them and her friend, peixuan suggests to plan a kidnap to test the concern of thier parents towards her. But it was a trick because peixuan was jealous her has parents but didn't appreciate and killed her. Xiaowen was refreshing the memories in past about the caring of her parents to her, and she passed away......

My brother also took part in the drama as xiaowen's father. I worried him because scared he did NG but at last he performed well~! I'm proud of his profesional in drama performance. I crapped hands when the drama is finish shown as encouragement and respect.

The next theme of drama is evilness of one's after being hurt mentally in life and the title is "Black and White". This time the main character is jun hong who acts as the poor guy, called Genong. He killed his mom when he was out of control due to domestic violence by his mom. Then he became beggar controlled by gangster and someone cheated his money, causing him desperated. His life was changed when met with a mysterious man. He killed people who tried to cheat him and having extremely mental desperated. Finally he self-surrendered and be punished hanging to death. Jun hong was acting well and I was shocked that he had performed perfectly for his characterisation of craziness.

After we took a break for 10 minutes, we continued watching the drama "Green Romance". Lai peng is the main character, called "a little girl". In the drama, she wanted to commit suicide when she having the conflicts in life but rescued by an aborigine, called Alor. They were falling in love each other after being stay together fews day. The two main characters always sing the songs to express thier feelings. Nice job~! This drama is romantic and didn't have the scenes of murder like in other two dramas.

The performance was ended at 6 pm. While I'm waiting my parents I followed my friends to have meal outside. We were chit-chatting, make joke and eating. We had a good time there.

That's all. =)

11 March~ 2009 SPM result released day

We had the blood test in laboratory when biology lesson. After that when we went back to class, we enjoyed the free time as there were no teacher there. I had a nice chit-chat with yilin XD

It was around 10 am already and I gonna go to kwang hua square to meet with ex-seniors as I promised them. The square was crowded with many ex-students who worried for their result but joyful because they met and chatted with thier friends. Most of them fashionably dressed and make-up. Nice man~! I hope I can free from meaningless school regulations of wearing.

I saw lingwei taking her result and she saw me too~! We were excited and chit-chatting, and she got all As except for mandarin. Then I saw xinyi but she didn't saw me because she was busy with her freinds. It was great when knew that xinyi got straight As in SPM. I asked them where is yoon voon but lingwei said she maybe will come late. I had saw thier result papers and made an analysis based on both papers. I laughted lingwei because she got A- for her moral, LOL, how bad am I. But then xinyi also got the same grade. I was curious of that and worried that if moral is so tough, then how about other subjects. But they all got A+ for their malay and english, congratulation to them~!

Finally yoon voon came already and everyone focused to her result because she took 13 subjects. Congratulation to her as she gained all As (included 8A+) except for mandarin, again. She was too happy and hugged me tight. I was happy and proud of her~

The atmosphere at kwang hua square still noisy and joyful. The students gathered for chit-chatting and thanked to teachers who also proud of them. I like such a feeling, althought some of them crying for the results, because most of them statisfied thier result and had a good ending after being tried the best at the end of secondary school life.

The time we standing here will be the day after one year. I hope everyone will happy with their results :)

遗憾

休息过后的第二节是道德教育，老师没来，班上一片欢腾。又多了一段空节，我也不知该做些什么，四处跑去其他人的座位，来到美惠的附近。这时我发现美惠一拐一拐地走向她的座位，原来她的脚受伤了(=.=||| 抱歉事前不知道)，而且伤势不轻。她一人坐着，四周围空空的，倍感凄凉(哈哈！)。所以我坐在她面前，起初问她有关下一个6M的聚会，然后我们开始聊考试的东西，不知为何，我们各自谈到在学业以及生活方面的遗憾。

“我遗憾化学最高分得主不是我。”
“如果你认为遗憾，那我可比你遗憾多了，3年始终不属于我。”
“还有还有，我中二时科学也饮恨让给其他人。”
“美惠，我所说的是科学！中一时得满分！可是一名女生与我同分，而我却输在第一次大考分数；中二那年你和另一女生得满分，我一分之差就与你们平起平坐。”
“可是第一次大考的分数她比我高，我很遗憾那一次。”
“可你在中三荣获了啊，而我再次遗憾。还记得那年考卷(预考)很难，很多人拿B等，可我是续你之后分数第二高，虽然分数相差6分，哈哈。”
“你知道为何我很在意中二那年？因为我竟踏错一步少了一分！(一失足成千古恨) 如果我与你们同分，我相信我第一次大考的分数比你们高。”
“哎呀…你再怎么遗憾也不比我多。其实老师问过我是否重批她的试卷，我不想伤感情而敷衍老师说算了吧。不说你不知，我们第一次大考、第三、第二月考同分！唯败在第一月考，差一分。结果眼睁睁看着她夺下化学。”
“结果，她共夺走两科最高分的…而你什么也没有。其实你应该告诉老师说重批时，如果她的试卷有错误才扣分。”
“对！早知如此，我应该这么说。”
“当时的你很不理智。我想说的是，应该不言放弃争取，况且这项竞争是公平、良性的，伤什么感情？”
“遗憾… 我也遗憾上次去吕老师家拜年时，没拿STPM普通科参考书。”
“哦？”
“其实我对其里面的东西有兴趣，可当时怕你们嘲笑我这么早拿STPM的书什么什么的，最后作罢。”
“哎哟，你没看到我当时拿最多书的吗？别说我贪心，可那些参考书对我和弟妹有所帮助，况且老师的丈夫是书商，那些样本是出版商送给他，他没用到迟早也会送人或是丢弃。是吗？”
“嗯。还有，我遗憾去年没问亲戚是否有去观赏一场自己好想去的精彩演出。如果有问的话，就不会遗憾吧。”

(以上对话不含敏感课题，纯属个人意见，愿共享之)

此时钟声响起了，我们的谈话来到尾声。最后我们总结刚才的谈话“当机会摆在你眼前时，必须好好珍惜；当它不属于你，也得去争取。可是没有了机会，留下的是遗憾……”虽然这句话大家都听过了，但还是要提醒大家。

在此也祝福美惠早日康复。让我们一起把握时机，争取自己想要的东西，不再留下遗憾。